Impatiently waiting....still!

I know I'm only 2 days past my due date but here's the facts: I've been having TONS of contractions for the past 6 weeks. That's unusual for me. I figured that the contractions combined with the extra stress I've had for this entire pregnancy just might make the baby arrive a bit early. Yes, I was wrong but what's wrong with at least being on time? So, here I am impatiently waiting for a baby that I feel may just never come. It really stinks to feel like my life is on hold. Every night I think "tonight might be the night!" only to wake up disappointed in the morning. I have been walking EVERYDAY and eating spicy foods and labor inducing pizza and have no baby to show for it. My ribs are aching from the constant feet up in them and my lower back feels like it may just crack in two. Seriously....stick a fork in me, I'm done! I have an appointment tomorrow morning where the docs will want to schedule an induction. I SO don't want to be induced. Pitocin just sucks. I feel so bad because there are SO many people waiting on pins and needles to make that trip to the hospital. It's going to be a real party in that waiting room and delivery room. And everybody is stuck in this holding pattern with me....impatiently waiting!

This insanity has GOT to stop!

Most of you are well aware of the natural disaster that is Jake. Well, he's still up to his same ole tricks and it's got to stop. He's making me CRAZY! Jared FINALLY agreed to start handling Jake so I can have a break. I know he's an anxious kid and when he's stressed, or hungry, or tired, or his eyes are blue, he acts ANGRY! Anger is his default emotions. All feelings are worth getting angry over (as far as HE'S concerned) Today, I had enough. This was the last day (for awhile anyways) that I will be driving Jake to school. He's slow in the morning. He's unprepared (all the time) and he's always yelling, hitting, calling names, and just generally nasty. He actually had me in tears this morning. Mostly, I think, because I really wanted to just knock him out but I know that's not allowed. He makes me feel like such a terrible mother. What kind of mom doesn't enjoy her own child? I'm just tired of his brothers living in fear. They're afraid of what Jake's going to do to them, their stuff, me....the list goes on. Tucker acts like an abuse victim, even going so far as to protect Jake....it's just unhealthy. I'm so relieved that Jared agreed to take control over Jake. SO relieved!

Another busy weekend in the house of testosterone.

The weather should be nice and there is plenty of work to be done. Let me tell you, nothing is more thrilling to my boys than knowing that due to their poor behavior, their weekend will include picking up poop (chicken AND dog) and doing other various odd jobs at mom's whim. Jake, Tucker and Tanner just insist on learning all lessons the hard way. I guess that's fine. It means that I don't have to do these gross jobs. I told them that since they choose to act in such a disgusting manner, they can do ALL the disgusting jobs I can come up with. Looks like I no longer have to scrub the urine stains off the tile in the bathroom either! YEAH!

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Things have been really crummy around here lately. I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty of it all because it's just really a crappy story that I don't feel like telling. I'm just going to ask that you all send some good thoughts and prayers my way. I'm going through some things that have just got me very down with really nobody to talk to. I'm not asking for pity or sympathy.....just prayers. I KNOW things will get better....it's just been a bad day.

Thanks in advance!

Pass the benadryl please.

Will somebody just shoot me now? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE Spring. The weather, the flowers the beautiful fields of flowing grass, the promise of warmer days to come. But really, do you need to rain on my parade by giving me allergies from hell? I so wish there was some medication out there that would actually do me some good but so far, I haven't found it. Instead I have a pounding headache every time I dare to bend over to pick something up. My eyes are all wacky from the extra sinus pressure and pretty much everything sounds like my head is under water. Other than that misery, I'm really enjoying spring so far.

And seriously, Easter already? Where DOES the time go?

Update

It's been quite some time since I've really posted anything. I thought maybe I should post an update since there is so much going on.

Jon has been really focusing on his grades lately. I have to say that I am VERY proud of him. He brought home a 3.0 for his first high school semester! I know he could've done much better and after seeing the progress he made with just a tiny bit of effort, he's finally decided that it's worth his time to just go ahead and try hard the whole time. This is a huge step for him and I hope it sticks.

Jake has been transitioning to public education. This is his second try at this. It's very difficult for him to go from the sheltered, minimal amounts of work, lots of therapy to just regular school. He's managing to fit in well. His grades leave a lot to be desired but we're finding he has some holes in his skills. Luckily the school he's going in to is VERY willing to work with him. He's now spending half his day at regular school and the second half at his private school. He should be full time in middle school by April! Jake also just landed a Macy's job. The only catch is it may only appear in Hawaii! If not, he'll be in the Macy's one day May Day sale! Look for him!

Tucker has started taking meds for ADHD. He was having some focus problems in school which may be due to his recently diagnosed Sleep Apnea. He's been doing amazingly well with the meds. It's even helped him recognize how it's not always in his best interest to align himself with big bro Jake. Tucker is due to have his surgery on Tuesday the 17th. Tonsils and Adnoids are coming out. He will have to spend one night in the hospital to be monitored but then he'll be home. Pray that all goes well and he makes a speedy recovery. Who knows, he may not even need the meds afterwards!

Tanner has also started meds. Docs think most of his problem is depression. I think it's environmental. Living with Jake is tough. I feel it too.... BUT, I see him struggling with school and if just ONE thing can be made easier for him, I'm all for it. We've been noticing great changes in him an his happiness and focus at school. Not so much at home as with Tucker though, but it's still good.

Brennen is COMPLETELY potty trained! He was SO easy. He hasn't had in accident in the longest time and he rarely wakes up wet in the morning. He's wearing pull ups at night but I think it's just about time to ditch those. I've also discovered that I was making bedtime more difficult than neccessary by rocking him. One night while trying to get him to settle down, I told him that if he didn't stop squirming, I was going to put him in his bed. He said, "Please put me in bed Mom!" I did and he went right to sleep! Man, all those tough nights....when all the poor kid wanted was the peace and quiet of his own bed! I do find though that he's not too happy to go to bed unless I'm in MY bed too. Most nights that works out fine though.

The guys have also just gotten over some nasty virus. It looks just like strep throat. Fevers, RED throat, miserable. Lasted 2-5 days and was gone. Unfortunately it hit our house in two rounds. Tanner and Brennen had it two weeks ago. Jake and Tucker had it last week. Jon seems fine. He's always healthy. Lucky dog!

Well, I think that's about it for here! What's new with you?

I just want to smack them!

My oldest boy, Jon, has this girlfriend. She's really sweet and they are adorable together. I was not super thrilled about him having a girlfriend. He's only 14. BUT, I remember being 14 and having a huge crushes on guys so I didn't want to make him miserable by being one of those moms. PLUS, she lives several cities away and they don't see each other all that much. She's a bit older than him. Just turned 16. I wasn't too happy about that either but I did date guys that were a year behind me in school so I didn't think it was too big of a deal. In a strange coincidence of "it's a small world" her cousin happens to store his trucks and equipment in our field. Gary is a now a friend of my hubbys and you can imagine my surprise when I discovered that Bella did not just celebrate her 16th bday but her 17th!!! Needless to say, I was a bit pissed off with both Jon AND Bella for lying to me! Jon says they did it because they knew I wouldn't want him dating a girl who was nearly 17. So, in all your infinite wisdom......what would YOU do? I don't feel like I can forbid them to date. I think that would make things worse.... but I am SO angry with them for lying to me. I've always told my kids that the truth is far better than lying. The trouble is MUCH less if you tell the truth even if the truth gets you in trouble! UGH! What to do? HELP!

So not good....

The photo session did NOT go perfectly. No, it did not. In fact, I do believe that the monkeys completely took over the zoo. It was almost painful. Why is it so hard to get just ONE.DECENT.PICTURE!?!?! There was one that was SO great. Brennen looked absolutely angelic, Tanner looked basically beautiful, Tucker looked casually cute, Jon looked daringly dashing and Jake looked....Ok, Jake was Jake the JOKER! They all looked SO perfect, complete eye contact with the camera and everything until your eye gets to Jake who has the cheesiest, let's-see-how-big-my-smile-can-be-and-how-tight-I-can-squeeze-my-eyes-shut, look on his face! UGH! In the end I guess I did get some that I can hang on my wall. Someday, when I look at that photo, I may even forget the chaos that was that moment! It just went SO differently in my head.


I'll post them when I get them...... You'll see what I mean!

Faulty wiring? Me, or the car?

So, for the third time since I've had my Suburban, I've gone out to a dead battery. It's an 03 Suburban and when you turn off the car, the radio stays on until you open a door. Kind of a nice feature.....or so I thought. Anyhow, when I get out of my door and the radio goes off, that lets me know the car is off completely. Seems simple enough right? Tanner and I went out to the car today and were talking outside before we got in....no sound coming from the vehicle. I opened his door and waited the 10 seconds it takes him to hike up into the car and suddenly, the radio pops on! WHAT THE HECK! I look up front in time to see all the radio lights come on as well. OH NO! I ran to the front, threw open the drivers door and turned the key. Yep, you guessed it, the battery is dead.....AGAIN! UGH! This is so frustrating. What if I was in labor or something? (Yeah, like that's ever going to happen!) It seems like something strange is going on with the car. I guess I'll have to have it checked out. Of course, I am a moron for not simply removing the keys everytime I get out. I guess I need to change my habits a bit......