And life takes another turn.....

Some of you may remember how I was struggling with this issue back in October....if not, do read, it helps with the sense making. Well, I had a feeling something like this may end up happening and wouldn't you know, I was right. I really wish I could have done it all according to plan but, hey, apparently it IS according to plan....just not mine. I have to give God the credit because I realize how insignificantly little I really know compared to him so I'll leave it in his capable hands and know he'll help me out. So, if you haven't guessed by now......I had the "Lucky 7" but now, "8 is DEFINITELY enough!" Since the cat is out of the bag and my brothers, sisters and kids already know, I thought I'd share it with the entire blogging world. We are expecting #6. I AM excited because what's not to love about a new baby. A new person to add a whole new dimension to your life. A new personality to know and love. Boy oh Boy though am I ever thinking pink. It's funny how God works if you really think about it. In late January, I woke up very early one morning having just had the most incredible dream. It was more of a revelation really. I FINALLY understood my insanely strong need for a girl. Ok, I know it'll all sound so simple and you'll wonder why I didn't get it earlier but for whatever reason....I just didn't put all the peices together. When I was pg with Tanner, 4 ultrasounds told me he was a girl. Since I always wanted 3 boys then a girl, I was over the moon excited with my sheer luck. I thought for sure this was karma rewarding me for something good. When he was born and, obviously a boy, I was immediately in love with him but still so sad. Where did my daughter go. In an attempt to have it all together, I never really was allowed the time to grieve. I developed PPD about 6 mos later but now I don't believe that was really what it was. I think that when you have a beautiful new baby, people expect you to be happy so I was never given the opportunity to mourn and I've just always felt like a piece of my heart was missing. THAT was why I had the insane need for a girl....I think I've been looking for that lost piece for a long time. After that, I talked to Jared and my mom to explain it to them. I cried and cried as I told them but you know what? I felt much better afterwards. I was very content with my lot in life of being a boy only mom and I was ready to move on. I still would have liked to have a girl but I could understand and respect Jared's opinions without inserting so much raw emotion. That being said, shortly after I found out I was pregnant! Friday, February 13th to be exact. To say I was SHOCKED would be an understatement. I felt terrible like Jared would think I had done something purposeful to get my way. He didn't. I can't say that he's jumped on the happy bandwagon yet but I'm going to let that be his issue. I feel like this one could be a girl....that's my gut feeling. BUT, I could do a whole lot worse than another beautiful boy and let's face it....I've posted their pictures and they are absolutely gorgeous. I will be 4 mos tomorrow. I am over the morning sickness but still having stomach issues. I am doing my damndest to really soak in every bit of this last time. This will be the last time and I know that already which I think makes it easier. I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. I can't say I'd mind to terribly if you all want to go ahead and think pink for me though.......

I feel like this post is very jumbled and long so I hope it's understandable!

I spoke too soon.

Remember the post about how things were starting to look up a bit. Yeah, well I should've known enought to keep my big mouth shut. Karma seems to have read that post and has decided to kick my ass! I never open my phone bills. I have automatic payments set up and the monthly charges are always around the same so I just don't really have a need to open them. The other day, I got my phone bill and opened it, wanting to find a number to call to see about changing my service. I'm trying to cut corners where I can because, well, the economy sucks and kids aren't cheap to feed. You can imagine my surprise when I saw that my phone bill for the month was $863! AND, my automatic payment of $860 had already been deducted from my account last month! I just about pooped my pants! I called customer service only to find out that the charges were long distance DIAL UP charges! WHAT? I checked my access numbers and nowhere do I see the number that my computer is supposedly calling to connect to the internet. The best they could do is offer me a payment plan. Yes, you read that right.....they can offer me a freakin payment plan where I can arrange to make payments for an astronomical bill that I really don't think I'm responsible for. I emailed the AT&T CEO a couple of days ago. Hopefully he's a good man who will do the right thing because honestly, the only payment plan I want to hear about is the payment plan AT&T is going to use to pay ME back! I'm so pissed. I just keep thinking about the fact that we never can afford to take the boys on fun trips. Geez, with $2000 I could've taken them on a fabulous Disney trip. Instead, I'm paying my phone bill. I don't think I'm getting my moneys worth. If you have ANY other ideas on how I can get this resolved and get my money refunded....PLEASE let me know. I am desperate here. We absolutely CANNOT afford this.

It has HIT the fan!

Yesterday, during the short car ride to drop the boys at their various schools, Jake and Tucker were literally trying to KILL each other. This is not the first time these two have gotten into it physically but it may very well be the last time. I decided then and there that my "24/7" plan was going in to effect. When Jon and Jake used to fight when they were younger, there were times when I would actually strap them together, forcing them to learn to work together. It always worked. SO, I've decided to go back to my parenting roots and am doing the same thing with Jake and Tucker. Last night, after MUCH effort from my and Jared's part, the boys are now roommates. Jake is PISSED, to say the least. I had wanted to sit him down and tell him once Jared got home but Tanner being Tanner, let it slip. Holy cow! Jake flipped out and demolished his room. It was the craziest I think I've ever seen him. BUT, I've decided that I'm not cutting him any slack any more and he was made to clean it up. I think overall, I WILL get the desired results. Failure isn't an option for me. He WILL behave in a kind way to Tucker. I am so sick of him picking on Tucker. They're both grounded until next Thursday so they will have nothing but time to spend with each other. Pray for us! This could get real ugly.

Oh poo!

A couple days ago, I was trying to interest Brennen in a trip n try to the toilet. He politely declined my offer but continued to toot. I thought, oh well.... 5 minutes later, I told the kids to get their suits on since it was really just too hot in the house and we were going to take a quick dip. Brennen was SO excited to go swimming. He ran over and got a swim diaper for me. It was pretty dark in our house since I've been keeping all the shades down on the windows to help cut the heat....so when I saw the little "discoloration" in his diaper, I simply wiped his bottom before putting his swim diaper on. We had a lovely time in the pool. It was so refreshing yet oh too brief. I had to take Jon to his girlfriend's house (YES, he has one! That'll have to be a different post) Jake was, as usual, being a terd. What happened next really let me know that, karmically speaking, the planets are aligned just right....

Jake: What the H@LL?!?!? Who CRAPPED on the floor? Oh MAN! I just STEPPED in it!
me: Well, I guess someone's trying to tell you that maybe you should be a little nicer...(giggling the whole time)

He was FURIOUS! Apparently that discoloration I had noticed in the diaper had come from a bit more than a little toot. I swear though, I didn't notice anything falling out of the diaper! I mean, seriously, I know my house is a mess and all......5 boys!....but I'm not one to knowingly leave a terd lying on the floor! I just thought it was poetic justice...the only thing funnier would have been if he laid down to watch tv......
Ok, I guess that's just mean! LOL